strange daze

i've made it a priority to ride my bike every day.
i did 2 miles today, looks like it may be 3 tomorrow.
i miss my friends tremendously.
i am going to visit caroline on saturday at built by wendy.
i've been trying to get better, i have been taking classes in meditation as well as stress management...
i try to talk to germs, patty,& ian, and caroline once or twice a week.
i miss toby and holly too much. ive been terrible at communicating my thoughts with loved ones
and its harder than it sounds. ive started and stopped piles of letters because i dont know
how to relate to anyone anymore. i hope that i dont lose those friendships.
i am currently trying to be the best person i can be so that i wont have to be in terrible situations ever again.
i might look for a new place with caroline for january.
its still strange in clinton hill, it's almost like she's still there.
i think about amelia every day.
and vinny too.(he passed away in august and was my favorite art teacher and best friend during my high school years..he taught me how to fly, paint, and open up to different mediums and was my aspiration to go to SVA bc he had gone there 20 years prior..)
i miss you, i love you.